My Personality Profile
Hello again!
Well isn't this fun? I just had a conversation with my mentor team about my future goals and the kind of job I want to get into. Also about the type of person I am and the skills I possess.
I started a difficult journey last year. Right before I started this program I was going to cognitive behavioral psychologist to work on my anxiety. After almost five years of working at the Apple store, I started to have random panic attacks. With therapy I was able to talk through my career concerns and the whole "What am I doing with my life" problems that were causing me to have anxiety.
During that time, we talked about the roles I would audition for in theatre. I told him I often liked the side characters. The ones that don't carry the show, but that you remember afterward. He asked me "Do you ever go out for the lead roles? Ever try?" I told him, "No, not really." I didn't see myself as someone who could be a leader. I still don't, but I'm working on it.
But this test makes me want to re-affirm a few things. Maybe just to come back to it later.
I am a good leader. I take criticism pretty hard and I often see the shortcomings of others inside myself as well. I am intuitive and charismatic. I avoid conflict and struggle with tough decisions. I like to make sure my difficult decisions minimize damage on the lives of others. I empathize easily, for better or worse. And I have a compulsion to save the world.
I forgot to mention that I got the Protagonist personality type. ENFJ-A/ENFJ-T
Well isn't this fun? I just had a conversation with my mentor team about my future goals and the kind of job I want to get into. Also about the type of person I am and the skills I possess.
I started a difficult journey last year. Right before I started this program I was going to cognitive behavioral psychologist to work on my anxiety. After almost five years of working at the Apple store, I started to have random panic attacks. With therapy I was able to talk through my career concerns and the whole "What am I doing with my life" problems that were causing me to have anxiety.
During that time, we talked about the roles I would audition for in theatre. I told him I often liked the side characters. The ones that don't carry the show, but that you remember afterward. He asked me "Do you ever go out for the lead roles? Ever try?" I told him, "No, not really." I didn't see myself as someone who could be a leader. I still don't, but I'm working on it.
But this test makes me want to re-affirm a few things. Maybe just to come back to it later.
I am a good leader. I take criticism pretty hard and I often see the shortcomings of others inside myself as well. I am intuitive and charismatic. I avoid conflict and struggle with tough decisions. I like to make sure my difficult decisions minimize damage on the lives of others. I empathize easily, for better or worse. And I have a compulsion to save the world.
I forgot to mention that I got the Protagonist personality type. ENFJ-A/ENFJ-T
I hope you don't mind me saying that I think it's really smart and brave that you chose to address your anxiety with therapy. I can't imagine that it was easy but I hope that it led to a lot of personal insights that will help propel you forward. You've talked pretty candidly about your experiences with anxiety and it's made me wonder if it's something I should address in myself. It's not something that I've experienced on an on-going basis but rather, something that's emerged as I've begun to work on my own ideas. Like you, I can comfortably get in front of a room and teach but it's probably easier because it's not really "my material". I didn't personally develop the Adobe products that I instruct on. But, even having a conversation about my idea still makes me nervous and I lose my confident tone of voice. If you've got an ideas or tips, I'd love to hear them. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for your honesty in this post! I really like your last paragraph and think everything mentioned in it is actually a hallmark of a good leader. I 've struggled in my career with having this one vision of a "leader" as this confident/take charge/decisive/knows the right answers person. The first time I took a formal leadership role, I had huge imposter syndrome because I didn't feel any of those things. Over time with reflection, I realized that so many leaders that I respect don't fit that archtype I had in my head, but instead our honest, transparent, vulnerable, and focused on really listening to their teams.
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